Law Fac Diary

My life at Law Fac.. reading a college mate's blog set my mind galloping about the corridors and classrooms, canteen and nescafe, offices and garden of my college and how I feel about studying here. I come from a college where I felt more out of place than let's say..had i been studying Journalism on Jupiter. Yeah. I never felt I belonged and I never invested. Period. The place was a bore for me and all I wanted was for my grad to get over!! The fake attitude of people around, the shallow banter, the stupid, I repeat, stupid hole of a canteen (hehe.. it should be aired on TV smday!!), the lack of any kind of intellectual stimulation, and of course the library of all libraries where one was not allowed to scroll through bookshelves..(i still have trouble believing that) where all books were stacked nicely albeit locked inside glass-pane..locked!! One couldn't even have the contentment of holding a book in the hand and go over a few passages before deciding to get it issued.. you only got to touch a book if you were to issue it. Policy bizarre. Needless to say, I never used my library card in three years. Not once. The idea of a locked library was akin to keeping those lovely books in confinement. To me all those books seemed to be shedding tears. And the teachers.. those who were good left mid-sem, those who remained flirted, those who flirted were definitely popular, and the non flirting non leaving teachers (read lady teachers) were simply bad at teaching! :P Ok, i know i am being too harsh... :P the staircase on which students used to sit was nice... the pigeon droppings that covered the ground made us feel one with nature. hehe.. ok it wasn't all that bad! The students who had 'fun' really had great fun and made friends for a lifetime. I just didn't belong.. i was a square peg to the round hole perhaps! 

So, when I entered law fac.. it had really good chance of making a good impression considering the past record of my grad college! I think of law fac fondly. Naturally. I don't care if our classes don't have air conditioning systems.. it has trees all around. The library is one of the best in the country, no really. And the Fac is in campus.. the core of student life in Delhi. The students have some intellectual level.. it is possible to have a sensible discussion.. there is a debate and seminar group, guests are regularly called in for lectures after college hours. Something I enjoy attending.. given that the topic interests me. 

There are many around us who crib about the infrastructure, the ever empty water tank, the decrepit and ancient canteen, the nescafe counter where there is the same boring and limited menu every day ( but i am thankful for it!), and how can i forget.. the so called 'crowd' which according to many isn't hep enough.. those things hardly bother me. I like the fact that there are so many people from different backgrounds and lifestyles.. there is a considerable student population which is not doing law just to take it up as a profession but also because they like studying it. I like this attitude.

When my classes began, I never spent any time with my classmates..I was busy at other places. In third semester also it was pretty much the same.. I had taken up intership at HC so i was busy there. I don't even remember the third sem except for the time spent in Court. But now things seem to have changed a little. I enjoy being with my friends. I try to discipline myself .. attending classes regularly..(ok, i skipped nearly whole of last month but i had reasons a plenty!) I spend time with friends.. I have begin to take out time to be with them..the neha who used to run to HC to work, has come out of the shell she had created around herself. I enjoy studying law.. specially constitutional law .. i always knew i would like it .. it has taken my fancy even more now. The teachers however, are a mixed bag.. some good some bad, some too bad! (we students never spare our teachers, do we?) But it is good. i don't have sky high expectations. Nescafe or Nirulas,.. or the roadside chai-wallah and maggie wala .. i like them all! :) geeee And the cherry on the cake was the recently concluded CLC Fest called Ichthus..a similar fest has never taken place in the Law Fac. The fest gave all a time to bond, party and groove to the music being played by bands which had come to perform. I was happy to see the change in me. I was happy to see me happy. I think I am bringing back the confidence I had lost in the last year.   

Anyway.. this was not what i came here for. It is about my attitude towards the law fac that has changed with time..and of course it took me nearly two years to develop that bond. 

I do feel I belong here.. cz i respect this place. The fact that it is Delhi Univ makes me feel good. It is so important to have an alma mater you are proud of :) and despite all its hooliganism and madness and babudom of the college administration.. i love the place and look forward to going tomorrow!

Night Out

I was in a 'lost' mood all evening..was just lost in thoughts and though i had made the plan for the night out (on the road in the car), but when we actually set out for the drive and dinner.. i was lost again..in my thoughts.. my usual fervour and banter all gone. I cud see didi trying to cheer me up.. and i was trying hard to get into the playful mode.. for her sake and mine. I could feel something was bogging me down. Some feeling unknown.. mystified..too deep for comprehension..it was not unfamiliar though. I want to break free from that what is keeping me down. I so wanna fly. All said and done..in the end.. i know what is happening and why..

I recommend Wok In the Clouds in Rajouri Garden and a little Breezer thereafter.. dropping in at friends's place is also not a bad idea given you have good music playing..:) we had all of these today.. and i tried to immerse in the music, the moment and the cheer..being out all night is the second best thing one can do all night long.... ;)

Will write in more later

Love ya

Me