I have been writing, only not to post since some time now. Going through a lot of pessimism. Not the first time I have felt this way. All I wish now and since sometime now is to attend a Vipassana course, meditation happens to be secondary, I really wish to be calm. It has been recommended to me by two people now and I wish I do it at the Dhamma Giri Centre at Igatpuri. Why specifically this one, I know not. I have known the efficacy of meditation once or twice before. And as much as it is difficult for me to 'listen' to people and do as they say, this once I wanna see how it goes. The times are not that good. Sometimes it is good to listen.