These days the more i think about myself, the more it dawns upon me that I have changed..in my choices, my cravings, my habits, and my likings..it has been going on for so long that I feel like putting it all down. May be its 'growing-up-- LIVE' that i am witnessing.. don't want to let the feeling go unobserved, so here i am..
So what are these little changes?
The most frivolous ones: For once I have begun to like eating green vegetables MORE happily than before.. while earlier the likes of rajma, chhole etc etc used to be my favourites, now I am alright with bland green vegetables. I used to always opt for rice if ?I could help it.. now I like to have it as a supplement to roti, not as a substitute. Earlier chocolates were my weakness.. now i don't find myself craving for them..even Ferrero-Rocher...IMAGINE..
I have grown more calm..in an earthed manner..
I still discuss most of what's going on with my friends but till possible I have started keeping my troubles to myself.. this is happening naturally to me..something which is worrisome cz a girl needs to 'say it out and talk-it-over..and if I don't do that Im doing me more harm than good.
I don't let me cry now..i cant stringently vouch for that though but something to that effect has happened.
I may be happy from the inside at times, but earlier while that used to culminate into a chirpy nonsensical mad neha, now it comes down to a more sober, 'gambheer', quiter neha..whom not much can shock, not much can excite. (Pls don't let that happen.) ..Lots more i feel, but for here, i think this is enough.
To tell the truth, I am afraid of this change and I wish not to change myself. I hope its just a passing phase of life.. and nothing permanent...and when i feel the same again i woudl come to u and share it out.
Love, ya
innocence is the difference between a boy and a man...
ReplyDeletea girl and a woman too perhaps...!!
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this is all a part of growing up. if you aren't sure, you can read my post. it isn't about the kind of changes you suggest, but yes, it explores the differences between a child and a grown up.
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Hey another point i forgot to mention in the post was that now i have begun to be afraid at night! I have always been quite comfortable in darkness or at late night hours..but js smdays back i felt afraid of noises and the gothic shapes simple things like a chair and or a mirror take at night! wel, wouldn't say i didnt enjoy the thrill of being afraid!
ReplyDelete@ aman ..yes.. innocence is what we all crave for just like we crave for our childhood.. that's the trajectory of life we want to be able to walk back upon as and when we wish..isnt it?
@ rajat.. i will definitely read ur post and comment. :)
na, not me... i don't crave for it..
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