yak yak yak

The faces we see on facebook.. it is an illusion, isnt it? Behind those smiles sometimes there is so much pain, behind that pain there are so many stories.. some stories we see, some stories we hear and some we live. The ones we live we consider the toughest. I know all that crap about being happy.. about not being a worrier, about seeing the brighter side and about their being a God. But for once i dont care and i dont want those damn motivational quotes. Yea they are true and yea they mean no harm. But for one second let it rain tears..for my story. Hua kuch nahi hai.. hua kuch bhi to nahi hai..tab bhi aankhein nam hai.. dil kehta hai kuch to hai jo sahi nahi hai..all that happens in all lives right.. koi badi gal ni hai.. main to anyway choti si gal hu :p

I know that ultimately all happens for the best. Bad patches of life lead us to the good ones.. if we dont know sadness we wont know whats being happy  I know i know i know..encouraging quotes.com.. But presently i am living in the moment... sad hu to kya hua.. sad hi to hu

vaise ab theek ho rahi hu :)

Nah..not a gud tym. For wisdom tooth or for my laptop adapter to go
kaput.. D pain in d jaw is piercingly sharp..so much dat pain killers
are needd al d tym to bear it. Dancing wid one tooth killing me .. Nt
a gud idea either. Bt v gotta do wat v gotta do! Cmin bac to d
laptop.. D adapter got fused again..cz of faulty wiring at home i
gues. Phew..nvrmind..i hv my celphone!
Tday morn wen i got up n saw my face - al swollen n sad..n tooth
aching bad.. It pulled me dwn a bit. Who wants a puffd up face at her
sisters wedding?! And to top it all, a neighbourhud lady said 'hai
re..bachi ka chehra kaisa udas ho gya hai! Ye to sbse khili khili
rehti thi hamesha!' and dwn went my mood further! Lol.. I made up a
joke quickly though n slippd inside! Umm..hungry nw.. U tk cr..lv

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The haze before the storm

Hey Deary!

I am just back from college. I hardly had any class today but I did attend one seminar which was about Legal Profession..the speaker was some eminent Advocate who practices at the SC mostly and whom i have seen many a times at the HC Chief Justice's Courtroom.. he is always sitting on the defendant's side...he is a top notch Govt counsel I presume. Nice soft speaker with oodles of knowledge about Literature besides Law! A combination soooooo alluring to me!

I don't know if i have mentioned it to you but of late i have been feeling kinda reluctant to take decisions about my career..i know i keep procrastinating about the ultimate place i wanna be.. the tussle being between my desire to pursue Law itself or just bravely change gears and get back into Journalism...deeper down these two roads I have chalked out for myself certain serious and confirmed parameters about what kinda Journalism I want to pursue and what kinda law practice I would want to get into. Sometimes knowing too much confuses you all the more..and thats the case with me I suppose, given the slew of internships and jobs that i have held before! Ofcourse I regret none of those stints..except perhaps the one in at ANI..a multimedia news agency. Anyway.. the point i was getting into was that after the seminar today i felt heaps better than lets say last night with regard my career. I felt the suffocation lifting.. I even gained some long lost confidence. :) But that is not the end of the problem! Far from it! Though I still can't say which road I'm gonna tread on, at least I'm again seeing the roads clearly.. without much haze. The problem was never the roads.. the problem was the haze. And you know what my heart says I would do? I would continue in law for sometime while still continuing my writing and ultimately end up in journalism. :P Not much of a 'choice' is it?? 

So, what else... ok that thing i cant tell you about, that thing too and that other thing too! So, bye for now!

Neha

Smthin smthin

Hi dear blog, i write to u from deep down d confines of two blankets n
a shawl.. I hv got fvr n bad cold..bt thats immaterial..cz thr r othr
things i must tel ya.
1. New car, finally a sedan! Red Honda City 2010! Cant wait to see
papa drive it! I put to use all 'sam dam dand bhed' 4 him to agree for
it..my last bit of emotional atyachar wrkd wndrs..! Now a brand new
car 4 him..our first luxry sedan!!
2. D wedding..i tell u its the most difficult event mgmt in d wrld! So
many characters n props n logistics.. N plots! Biggest show sans a
stage!
3. I hv dcidd to mk that extra effort to b cheerful. This cud b d last
lap! Js one life - my wanting smone smway wont alter d reality that
stares me in d face. Ppls lives beliefs feelings change with time! Wat
they wr, who they wr..these things change..! So one shud accept in
tym. My standing here waiting or wailing..neither will bring to me wat
i want n hw i want. I tel myself wat i alws blivd in doing - js gather
al happines u see arnd..n try multiplying it for othrs! Mwaaaaaah!
4. Im gonna dance in frnt of evryone at d sangeet function! Blush! Blush!
Ok, rest later. Lvya, N

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