Last night I slept crying. Thinking how what when where. Thinking how all my life I have been valuing the wrong people perhaps, running after those who weren't there. Trying to make peace with nothingness even as I had everything. Each time something like this happens, my faith in me gets shaken, I am ambushed by fears and reluctance. My sister, living loveliness that she is, tells me to be realistic. "There'll be days like this", she also says. And she says so much more. I listen.
Nothing is clear, the haze is clear.
I leave for Goa today. Not a speck of smile.
I will return having newly turned 25.
That's all, folks.
Going through the same thing myself ("trying to make peace with nothingness")... You paint with words. All my empathy.
ReplyDeleteThanks Anya, for the "you paint with words" :) I don't know if I do, but its lovely to hear it. ;)
ReplyDelete'Tis true.
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